Go Our Own Ways

Tell me why everything turned around

Great song, if you don’t think about what the lyrics really mean.

It is official. D and I are going our separate ways. The trial separation did not work. Maybe it’s because even though I moved out of the bedroom, I did not leave the house, and neither did D.

Our 16 year old is blasé about the whole thing. probably because we don’t fight in front of them, or because we are civil to each other, or because they are a teenager with their own shit going on.

Or the Pu pu platter of all three, with a sprinkling of the unknown.

I love D. I believe she still loves me. But when she started becoming ultra-religious, it placed a wedge between us. I understand that she felt like she needed more meaning in her life, after her brain aneurysm. It took her several months to recover, but her personality changed afterwards.

I did go behind her back once, asking the doctor on her annual visit I drove her to if she had some kind of brain “damage”. He told me yes, of course she did. That was why she was still having issues with physical exertion and speaking.

I wussed out and did not bring up her personality change. I think I did not want to know.